Thank you for sharing yourself so openly. I suspect my mother had some bi-polar aspects although I think clinically she was just depressed. My late ex- was decidedly on the bi-polar side of things, with other undiagnosed issues which I was aware of through my work, mainly an auditory processing issue. I loved them as much as I could and I know they loved me in their own ways. That's the reality of living with bi-polar disorder which no one has really been able to turn into a work of informative and revelatory fiction.